What I am working on starting now, during my time off, is defining what it is I want, so that my intentions are clear in both work and life. However, figuring out what I want, and defining it, is not something that feels particularly easy to me. Partially because there are a lot of different things I want, and partially because I dread choosing something that ends up being unattainable.
Ah, the fear of failure. A foe of many.
I think I am also afraid of the commitment, thinking that whatever I choose now will dictate what I will do for the rest of my adult life. Since it is still early in this unemployment phase, I'm going to try to not be so hard on myself to figure everything out right now. It's going to take time to nurture my mind and decide which direction to go. No matter what, I have to believe that if I continue to do what I enjoy, then everything else will fall into place.
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